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24 June 2014 @ 01:01 am
I'm finally back to being a cow  
and ruminating. Ahem, I mean chewing on my piercing. So I've got a labret piercing, but the ball fell a few days ago and I put the piercing out in order not to lose or swallow the bar. Then, the after before yesterday, I bought a new ball but it'd just fall so I put it away again. Finally put it back today and it's yet to fall although I've been chewing on the bar quite a lot, which is why I'm a cow. Fortunately, I don't have the bovine inexpressive look XD

Anyway, I had a long chat with my cousin yesterday and we ended up speaking about my father. And I've learnt unsurprising things, also had an argument of some sort with my mother. No hard feelings or real dispute, we just disagree: she thinks I'm saying my father isn't a good person.

He is, a good person, thoughtful, charitable, who wants the best for the relatives. He accepted to house one of my friend for a whole year and refused to make her pay for anything (be it the rent or the food. The only condition was for her to put some money aside each month). He's helping my cousins with the paperwork when they come to France for studying. He sends money to his own father back in Madagascar (although their relationship is as messed up as mine with him).

I'm not saying he's not good. What I'm saying is: good and nice aren't the same thing. And if there's something my father is definitely not, it's nice. Also, there's a big difference between understanding and condoning. No really, as much as I love and admire him, I don't like him as a person, I'll never do and I wouldn't wish anyone to have him as a parent, especially if you're not excellent in math/sciences or chose to do something he deems as worthless (basically anything that's not engineering or in sciences/medicine. Law is okay though).

On a whole other and much more rejoicing topic, I've done some progress with my fic, even if Mr Clever tends to twist things to his own liking, but if I'm one thing, it's adaptive and I don't think there's anytime where a character drew me into something I couldn't find a way out... Except extending the plot to a point where an os become a chaptered fic and I have to add it to the unending WIP list, but that's a whole other battle XD Also, I'm leaving lots of easter eggs in my trail about Cybermen and Nightmare in Silver.

So, I'll try to finish it this night or tomorrow to let Fea have some time to beta it (and hopefully not have to ask for a delay).
Mood: calmcalm
Music: Murray Gold - The Ruined Childhood
     Mandya_phoenixdragon on June 24th, 2014 01:35 am (UTC)
I'm sorry, bb... *hugs you hard*

*Sends lots of love*

Glad your fic is working out though!!
Luo: glassevenluorescence on June 24th, 2014 01:59 am (UTC)
*collect and store love*

It's okay, we mostly laughed at it. How perfectionist and close-minded he's about studies. Also golden rule: if he asks you, everything's always fine... Unless you want to be in for a long rant and guilt-trip~


I'm just upset he doesn't do that only to me *groans* Because some of the stuff he says can really be hurtful and once he goes, he just won't stop. And he doesn't even realize how upsetting he can be.

For now, Mr Clever is relatively compliant and seems satisfied with what I did of his changes. I even got to introduce the Doctor/Jack bits and he's clearly interested in it. Real difficulty will be to decide when/how to stop because I'm already over 3,000 words and I don't want to do something too long.
Azzie's corner of madnessflowsoffire on June 24th, 2014 06:00 am (UTC)
Hahaha, the cow thing. I stared a bit at the beginning of your post ;) Priceless.

I'm sorry about family arguments/tensions and things being tough with your father, dear. It sucks that your mother misunderstands you on that point… Indeed, you can see clearly the person he is and value that, and still know he's very hard to live with… *hugs*

Yay for writing! You rock :)
Luo: computer mordinluorescence on June 24th, 2014 12:32 pm (UTC)
I swear it became sort of an automatism to chew on my piercing... Well, actually, almost all people I know how have lip or tongue piercings like to play and chew on them XD

My mother tends to have a bit of a black and white state of mind sometimes, but she tries hard to be understanding. So, if the subject is brought up again, I'll explain in simpler terms and it should be okay. Anyway, like I said, there's no hard feeling between us so it's okay. As for my father *sighs* Things will be better once I'll get my own place, in a distant future (hopefully, not too distant XD).

And thanks! I'm happy things are going relatively smoothly.
Azzie's corner of madnessflowsoffire on June 24th, 2014 06:43 pm (UTC)
Hahaha, as long as you don't hurt yourself! :D

Yeah, it's hard to discuss with someone with a black and white state of mind, but if she's understanding, that's the main thing. ♥ And yeah, a lot of things seem to get sorted by getting one's own place, don't they? I hope you can do that as soon as possible!